21.10.12

blackberry

a dull high pitched tone has been emulating from my phone all night... all day... since july 2010.  it is conditioning me into not being able to function without it.  subconsciously i am consuming the tone and it comforts me to feel i have this device to notify me when someone i love wishes to contact me.  this emotion is debilitating my freedom. if i do not have my phone, i don't have the gentle hum that is my safety and my only lifeline.  once that is gone, i fear i no longer exist.